Saturday special #1

I love when other bloggers share some cute or interesting stuff that they've found on the internet. I'm always curious to see some special pictures, new songs or videos or basically anything that I haven't seen. That's why I decided to share interesting findings of my own once in a while as well. I called it "saturday special", but I can already tell that I will not do this every Sat. Firstly because I don't usually stay home on Saturdays and when I'm gone, I can't post anything. And secondly because of my studies I don't have that much of free time to surf the internet. But I promise to do it as often as I can!

 I'm sooo in love with this and basically every dress from 'free people' store.

Dieing to find time to try this recipe and finally making macarons by myself.

I really liked these pictures of old farmhouses made by photographer NikiFeijens. Click here to see more.

What a cool idea this mom had and turned it real with her baby.

Makes you think.

I think that these famous childrens books' minimalist posters by designer Christian Jackson are brilliant.

These pictures of the groceries people consume in a week show the inormous difference between the 1st world countries and the third world countries. It makes me think of all the time's I've overeaten when these poor people starved and it hurts my heart (USA in the first photo and Chad in the second one).

I cried from laughter yesterday while watching Mitch Hedberg's performances. His humour is great!

I always like seeing old deserted places and then tracing down how they looked in their glory days. For me it feels like traveling in time. So I really like these photos.

This song feels kind of weird but I like the weirdness.

October

 October was rougher for me than September was. Life did not flow as easily as I would have wanted it to be. But those hard moments made the happy one's stands out more and it made me more greatful for the good that I had in my life. 
October was all about:
- Gasping every time I went to the university out of beauty that my city gives every single morning. Even when I'm late, I take the longer path just to see the beautiful view and to be inspired by it.
- Exploring autumn wood and lakes with my daddy. We were looking for new fishing and camping places that we can use next year.
- Mushroom picking with my family. Don't worry! We didn't take this shroom home. It was just so beautiful that I needed to take a picture of it.
- Seeing some shows. This was a rock/metal show that I went to see with my dad. I'm not a big fan of metal music but my dad loves the oldies and he really wanted to go to this "U.D.O" show so I went with him and even liked few songs. But it was a little too long for my taste.
- Involving myself into university's activities. This was an event for freshmen that the second year students made.
- Escaping from university on gaps between lectures with my lovely girls to get some amazing food.
-Enjoying the beautiful sunny weather. This autumn really suprised me with it's beauty. My dad says it's a compensation because we didn't had any spring this year (summer came right after winter which lasted the whole spring).
- Picking flowers at my grandma's garden for the last few times.
- Loving the days when I could get away to the countryside and leting my grandma to stuff me with delicious foods.
- Eating a looooot of raspberries because the raspberry harvest this year was enormous.
- Loving my kitty more and more every day.

- Dancing and doing it really often.
- Listening to a lot of jazz music.
- Studying all the days and nights.

 I hope your October was good too. Now let's see what November brings.

Love, Kamile

I took a sip from the devil's cup

"The heart is an interesting thing. It sees a boy and it does not care that the boy can not be yours, it does not care that what it feels is not healthy. The heart doesn't care what your brain and your senses tell you. The heart takes control and there's nothing you can do. You know that the heart drags you into places where you don't want to end up but you can't control it, you still follow it. <...> The boy takes your hand, strokes your face, looks deep in your eyes and the heart goes crazy. You become happy for a few magical moments. You forget that there's a world outside his arms. And then the boy lets go and goes back to reality and you stay in the dream. But without him the dream beacomes a nightmare. He leaves and you understand that you both will never be. As much as the heart would love it, as much as you, yourself would love it, the mind still knows it's not right. This is the moment when the pain kicks in. It feels like the boy took your heart with him when he left and there's nothing but needles where once lied your heart. <...> Even when the pain is over, you just lie there heartless, bloodless, loveless. You think of the moment when you first saw the boy, that was the moment when you felt your heart bump the first time - the moment you realized that you had a heart - and you miss the feeling of your beating heart inside of you. But even when the heart is in the boys arms, far away from your body, it still takes on more control than the mind."

The happy list

An awesome blogger had an awesome idea - people should do their happy lists and link them to her. I really liked the thought of it, so here's the list of things that make me happy:

1. My cat - that fluffy ball of fur has been making me happy for 12 years now.
2. Pumpkins. It's pumpink soup, pumpkin bread, pumpkin everything these days.
3. When the sun shines early in the morning and you know that the day will be beautiful.
4. My friends. I really need to be with people most of the time and my friends are unbelievable. 
5. Calming music. I don't imagine my life without it.
6. Peppermint tea with raspberries - I drink it every single day.
7. Learning. Don't confuse it with studying. I really dislike the studying process, but I love to learn and I adore noticing that my knowledge of things has grown.
8. Drawing. I don't get the chance to do that very often but  when I do I feel extatic.
9. A hot bath. I tend to have those as often as possible, everyone can always use a bit of relaxation.
10. Starting a new book. I liked it from the first pages.

I took this picture about two weeks ago

Have a great weekend!
Love, Kamile

There’s an endless road to re-discover

 Yesterday was a good day. When you're studying medicine, you don't really get the chance to just do stuff that much. I'm not talking about big things like parties,events or festivals, I'm talking about reading a book, going out for coffee or for example sleep. I saw a picture somewhere on the internet - a triangle with some word on every angle: good grades, social life, enough sleep, and in the middle it is written "choose two". Well, in medicine you can only choose one - not that hard to guess which one. 
 So going out has become something very rare but very special. I barely remember the last time when I went out in the middle of the week. Yesterday we had a big important exam to pass but we did not have to study anything afterwards and that happens like 2 times in a month. So my groupmates and me went to the Lithuania's national little theatre (Lietuvos mažasis teatras) to see a play. I love love love(!) theatre but being in university means that I don't have much money that's just there to spend. That's the reason why I don't go to the theatre as much as I would like too. But yesterday the play was free for all university and college students. I think that it's a great idea for a theatre to do this free day once in a while that even the poor young people could see something nice and do something special. The play was okay. Not the best that I have ever seen, but I still appreciated every minute of it. 
 Afterward me and my pals went for some hot wine in a little winery called 'notre vie'. It was nice just sitting there with close people and relaxing after the exam. We made friends with the bartender, invented a few private jokes and became better at understanding each other. The place was extremely cozy and warm and we did not want to go back to the wet and cold streets but when we finally did, we discovered that the night was beautifully warm and alive. Not wanting to go home just yet, we put our hands on each other's shoulders and had a little night tour of the old town. I fell in and over with love with the friends and the city. The moon was big and shinny. The streests were lightened with old and beautiful street lights. The company was the best I could ask for. We made a lot of pictures on every street corner and made a lot of noise everywhere we went. 
 When I finally came back home, I dropped down in bed and slept like a baby. Too bad that I had only 5 hours of sleep 'cause I had lectures in the morning that I couldn't miss. When I woke up my body felt dead tired but at the same time my heart, soul and brain felt rested. That is what friends do for you - they remind that you are alive when you forget how to do this yourself.

I send you lots of love.

Kamile

Don't stop imagining. The day that you do is the day that you die

I was always the person that never could do anything alone. I went to the cinema only if my friends went with me. I went shopping only if someone went with me. Hell, I bought ice-cream if only someone bought it too. I do not know why I always had this thing about never doing anything alone but it really has been getting to my nerves lately. The previous Saturday I was having a really rought day - life was getting a bit to hard to handle, I just needed to get out of my house and go somewhere, do something. I texted three of my best friends and all three of them were busy either studying, cleaning her room or out with other friends. I felt so alone and even more sad but I just couldn't stay home. So I did what I never did before - I went out alone. I took a book and went to the beautiful Bernardin gardens all by myself. I sat there and read alone. When the weather got a bit too chilly I went to a coffee shop, ordered a pistachio lattee and sat there all alone with my book and a delicious cup of coffee. And when the night came, I did my makeup, put a beautiful blue retro dress, took my dance shoes, sat on my bike and I rode to a big lindy hop dance party. Drinking coffee and reading a book alone was first level stuff, but going to a party all alone that was something very hard to make myself do. I always used to go to these parties with my dance partner but he left me and stopped dancing some time ago. However, the event was so beautiful and I met a lot of friends there so I wasn't alone at all. I barely got few minutes to rest my feet because I danced almost the whole night. 
 Despite being so affraid to do something alone, I really enjoyed it. A person needs to learn to be all by himself but once he does it becomes a real pleasure. I needed that time to unwind my head and this little thing changed my attitude big time.

Love, Kamille

P.S. These photos are not mine. They're made by my beautiful friend Justa.

P.P.S.: The post title has nothing to do with what I just wrote. Here's where it's from:

Beginners

Beginners is a 2010 American romantic comedy-drama film written and directed by Mike Mills. It tells the story of Oliver, a man reflecting on the life and death of his father, Hal, while trying to forge a new romantic relationship with a woman, Anna, dealing with father issues of her own. Or so says the all mighty wikipedia. To me it was something more. I am a big fan of this awkward movie genre, where everything is happening slow with a spice of various flashbacks. This is the case with this film. I loved it so much! And the whole story being about people who have time to be sad and that's their reason of being sad, is beautiful and I could really relate to it.

All pictures from google

Love, Kamile