The happy list

An awesome blogger had an awesome idea - people should do their happy lists and link them to her. I really liked the thought of it, so here's the list of things that make me happy:

1. My cat - that fluffy ball of fur has been making me happy for 12 years now.
2. Pumpkins. It's pumpink soup, pumpkin bread, pumpkin everything these days.
3. When the sun shines early in the morning and you know that the day will be beautiful.
4. My friends. I really need to be with people most of the time and my friends are unbelievable. 
5. Calming music. I don't imagine my life without it.
6. Peppermint tea with raspberries - I drink it every single day.
7. Learning. Don't confuse it with studying. I really dislike the studying process, but I love to learn and I adore noticing that my knowledge of things has grown.
8. Drawing. I don't get the chance to do that very often but  when I do I feel extatic.
9. A hot bath. I tend to have those as often as possible, everyone can always use a bit of relaxation.
10. Starting a new book. I liked it from the first pages.

I took this picture about two weeks ago

Have a great weekend!
Love, Kamile

There’s an endless road to re-discover

 Yesterday was a good day. When you're studying medicine, you don't really get the chance to just do stuff that much. I'm not talking about big things like parties,events or festivals, I'm talking about reading a book, going out for coffee or for example sleep. I saw a picture somewhere on the internet - a triangle with some word on every angle: good grades, social life, enough sleep, and in the middle it is written "choose two". Well, in medicine you can only choose one - not that hard to guess which one. 
 So going out has become something very rare but very special. I barely remember the last time when I went out in the middle of the week. Yesterday we had a big important exam to pass but we did not have to study anything afterwards and that happens like 2 times in a month. So my groupmates and me went to the Lithuania's national little theatre (Lietuvos mažasis teatras) to see a play. I love love love(!) theatre but being in university means that I don't have much money that's just there to spend. That's the reason why I don't go to the theatre as much as I would like too. But yesterday the play was free for all university and college students. I think that it's a great idea for a theatre to do this free day once in a while that even the poor young people could see something nice and do something special. The play was okay. Not the best that I have ever seen, but I still appreciated every minute of it. 
 Afterward me and my pals went for some hot wine in a little winery called 'notre vie'. It was nice just sitting there with close people and relaxing after the exam. We made friends with the bartender, invented a few private jokes and became better at understanding each other. The place was extremely cozy and warm and we did not want to go back to the wet and cold streets but when we finally did, we discovered that the night was beautifully warm and alive. Not wanting to go home just yet, we put our hands on each other's shoulders and had a little night tour of the old town. I fell in and over with love with the friends and the city. The moon was big and shinny. The streests were lightened with old and beautiful street lights. The company was the best I could ask for. We made a lot of pictures on every street corner and made a lot of noise everywhere we went. 
 When I finally came back home, I dropped down in bed and slept like a baby. Too bad that I had only 5 hours of sleep 'cause I had lectures in the morning that I couldn't miss. When I woke up my body felt dead tired but at the same time my heart, soul and brain felt rested. That is what friends do for you - they remind that you are alive when you forget how to do this yourself.

I send you lots of love.

Kamile

Don't stop imagining. The day that you do is the day that you die

I was always the person that never could do anything alone. I went to the cinema only if my friends went with me. I went shopping only if someone went with me. Hell, I bought ice-cream if only someone bought it too. I do not know why I always had this thing about never doing anything alone but it really has been getting to my nerves lately. The previous Saturday I was having a really rought day - life was getting a bit to hard to handle, I just needed to get out of my house and go somewhere, do something. I texted three of my best friends and all three of them were busy either studying, cleaning her room or out with other friends. I felt so alone and even more sad but I just couldn't stay home. So I did what I never did before - I went out alone. I took a book and went to the beautiful Bernardin gardens all by myself. I sat there and read alone. When the weather got a bit too chilly I went to a coffee shop, ordered a pistachio lattee and sat there all alone with my book and a delicious cup of coffee. And when the night came, I did my makeup, put a beautiful blue retro dress, took my dance shoes, sat on my bike and I rode to a big lindy hop dance party. Drinking coffee and reading a book alone was first level stuff, but going to a party all alone that was something very hard to make myself do. I always used to go to these parties with my dance partner but he left me and stopped dancing some time ago. However, the event was so beautiful and I met a lot of friends there so I wasn't alone at all. I barely got few minutes to rest my feet because I danced almost the whole night. 
 Despite being so affraid to do something alone, I really enjoyed it. A person needs to learn to be all by himself but once he does it becomes a real pleasure. I needed that time to unwind my head and this little thing changed my attitude big time.

Love, Kamille

P.S. These photos are not mine. They're made by my beautiful friend Justa.

P.P.S.: The post title has nothing to do with what I just wrote. Here's where it's from:

Beginners

Beginners is a 2010 American romantic comedy-drama film written and directed by Mike Mills. It tells the story of Oliver, a man reflecting on the life and death of his father, Hal, while trying to forge a new romantic relationship with a woman, Anna, dealing with father issues of her own. Or so says the all mighty wikipedia. To me it was something more. I am a big fan of this awkward movie genre, where everything is happening slow with a spice of various flashbacks. This is the case with this film. I loved it so much! And the whole story being about people who have time to be sad and that's their reason of being sad, is beautiful and I could really relate to it.

All pictures from google

Love, Kamile