20

Today I turn 20 years old. Can't even believe that I'm alive for such a long time. I'm happy and sad about it at the same time. But I'll try to stay positive and I believe that there's a lot of good things waiting on the road for me. Let the adulthood begin but without forgeting what it feels to be a kid.

Have a good new year's eve!

Love, Kamilė

One day of Christmas spirit

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

Whose woods these are I think I know.

His house is in the village though;

He will not see me stopping here

To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer

To stop without a farmhouse near

Between the woods and frozen lake

The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake

To ask if there is some mistake

The only other sound’s the sweep

Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,

But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,

And miles to go before I sleep.

- Robert Frost

What if I'm wrong

I need a miracle

"How in the hell am I going to finish everything up on time?!" - The thought that I live with all the time now. There is a week and two days left 'till the holidays and I still have 5 tests and 1 exam to pass, not to mention that I haven't gotten any Christmas presents yet. I hate myself for not doing everything on time and now I need to give up resting, dancing and even sleeping for these two weeks. Of course I could have done everything earlier, when there was still a lot of time left, but that's the thing - when I have a lot of time to do all of my work, I don't do anything at all because, hey, there's still enough time! Stupid me! Somewhere deep inside I knew that this would happen and a little quite voice inside told me to do everything earlier, but, as always, I said that little voice to shut up and did something else. And I hate that I have to hate myself for this. It's not like I didn't do any work earlier - I did a lot of it, I studied every night for a lot of hours untill I felt very tired but I did not work when I felt already tired and I needed to do that. I love medicine, I love everything about it. But the life quality while studying it SUCKS. And the irony is that I put my physical and mental health on the line because maybe one day it will all pay back in other people's health and lifes. It sounds like a noble cause and I think it's totally worth it but it's funny how we need to teach others to be healthy and make sure they're well being is okay when we don't even have an opportunity to live healthy ourselves. I hope hope HOPE that I'll be able to finish everything up on time but when it's all over I'm not going to get out of my bed for a week. And for now, I put up some motivational posters on my walls with hopes that it somehow can keep me determined and will fool my body and head that sleep is overrated.

Wish me luck

Kamile

November

 This post is about a week late but I just couldn't find any time earlier. So again I'm saying better late than never.
November was all about:
- Partying at MeDi week - it's medstudent's days. Our  university has this tradition of celebrating every faculty's week. Medstudent's days were awesome and had a huge closing concert with all the famous musicians and the money gathered from tickets were donated to charity.
- Baking only one cake in a whole month! I just didn't have the time.
- Studying A LOT. Alone or sometimes with friends.
- Discovering some more beauty in my own city. It never ends to surprise me.
- Taking a bunch of vitamin pills every morning. When studying this much I still need to maintain healthy which is kind of hard to do.
- Watching 'breaking bad'. Finally! And yeah, it's as awesome as everyone said. And also I started a show called 'elementary' which is really interesting too and has a lot of medical terms in it so I feel very satisfied when I understand what the characters are talking about.
- Loving my cat of which I somehow didn't take any pictures. That's called self control, people. Everyone is dead tired looking at cat pictures from 50 different angles and it doesn't matter how much I love taking them.
- Dancing even more than before. It's the only thing that keeps me alive.
- Going to see our city's Christmas tree opening at the last day of November.

I didn't take as many pictures as I would have liked to but hey, it's still something that I took these (except the last one - Miglė from meet me on the balcony did it, but I was there, so it still counts). November was okay, not good, not bad, but just okay of a month. There were extremely good and extremely bad days but most of them were just spent studying and checking facebook and that is not what I call a satisfying day. But December is now here and yesterday it snowed the whole day so there's snow everywhere you look and that is sooo beautiful. My group mates started playing 'secret angel' Christmas game (we secretly give little presents to each other every day and no one knows who gave it) so I'm feeling the Christmas mood already. I'm listening to Christmas songs every day and eat a lot of mandarins which smells like Christmas to me. Tommorow I'm going shopping for Christmas decorations with my mom so wish me good deals!

Merry December!

Love, Kamile

Hello December!

 I finally got to open my advent callendar! I can't believe that it's already wintertime.Time really flies this year but I feel excited. The weather was freezing these few last days but there is still no snow on the ground, although today it rained in ice cubes. I feel ready for the snowy cold weather and everything that comes with it. The only thing that concerns me is that when the snow comes everything will be very slippery and I manage to fall down all the time without snow involved. But that aside I adore how beautiful everything looks when it's all white and sparkly, so let it snow!

Have an amazingly beautiful December!

Love, Kamile

New

A week ago me and my dad went on a little shopping spree. Lately I've been thinking a lot about not buying anything I do not need. Money doesn't grow on trees and buying stuff that you use once or twice in half of a year is very impractical. I have a lot of clothes that I don't wear anyomore or even some that I did not wear that much at all and they're just filling up space. So I tried to concentrate only on the things that I really need.I didn't buy anything I did not need, just the essentials even thought there were some wanderings to jewelry stands and some cute accesories. But I'm not really a jewelry person, I might wear some earings or a necklace and I always wear a watch but I don't like having a ton of things on my body. The lesser - the better. So I managed not to buy any jewelry at all.

A very very cold winter is coming this year so I needed some extra warm knitted grey gloves. H&M

Openwork knit jersey. It is so soft and warm! I'm in love with a clothing piece. Stradivarius

Knitted grey hat. H&M

Knitted black tube scarf to keep my neck warm and me healthy. H&M

A black elegant maxi dress to have something to wear to some classy events. Also from H&M

Rubber effect skater skirt because I needed a new skirt for some time now ( It is not green, I don't know why it looks so here). Stradivarius

Canvas sneakers. I needed new ones for my dance class because the old ones already have holes in them. H&M

 Have a good last day of the working week!
Love, Kamile

It snowed!

This year we had an incredibly beautiful and warm autumn and now with December being less than a week away from now I feel really excited for the snow. Today when I left for university it was really cold outside. While walking down the last street from the university I decided that I need to switch my autumn coat and wear the winter one tommorow because it's just too chilly with this one but I had no idea that the winter will come by tommorow.
When we were listening to our human anatomy lecture I looked out the window and saw the huge snow storm outside! By the time our lectures were done there was a lot of snow everywhere and it still kept snowing strongly. I came back home totally wet and the pictures that I took with my phone are really blurry but I still am very excited because it means that Christmas is not that far away. And that means that it's already time to feel the Christmas' spirit with all the lights, songs, cozy sweaters and warm socks, hot coco, cheesy Christmas movies and all the other things that I love so much! 

Love, Kamile

Saturday special #2

I'm thinking of buying this dress from pull & bear. I already can imagine myself wearing it.

I think that these hyper realistic sculptures by Ron Mueck are amazing. They are really disturbing but cool at the same time. See more here.

Already feeling Christmas spirit, especially after this insane video.

Contacts and connections

Sundays on the street

Cure for stomach ache

These are some cool minimalist pictures that show difference between East (China) and West (Germany). See more here.

Some extremely beautiful pictures of my country - Lithuania. I always thought that out landscape was beautiful but even I did not think it's that beautiful from above. See more here.

A beautiful idea to make the world a place where there are more friends than strangers

Some stunning portraits of the world's remotest tribes before they pass away. I highly recomend to see more of these incredible views here.

Understanding all the sayings directly

That's just too cute! A toddler takes daily naps with his 2-month-old puppy. If you're not overwhelmed with cuteness just yet, then you can see some more pics and the the story behind it here.

I've been obsessed with this song lately. Lyrics are Lana del Rey's, the tune is from an amazing movie 'requiem from a dream' and Bastille is the one performing it. It doesn't get better than that!

Have an amazing rest of the weekend

Love, Kamile

Le portfolio de Kyle Thompson

It's been a long time since I've done "le portfolio de...". But I just hadn't found any photographer that I wanted to share here. That was until today when I found Kyle Thompson. 

Kyle Thompson is a 21 year old photographer from Chicago. As he claims in his blog, right now he is living in his car while traveling through us/canada. A few years back he was a shy boy from the suburbs of Chicago who went to college and had a job as pizza delivery boy. When he was 19 years old, he dropped out of college to follow his dream. Not a full year later Kyle became a recognized and desired young photographer with a distinct style.

Using himself as the main character in almost all of the shots, for a good shot Kyle’s willing to soak in freezing mud or set his clothes on fire.

 He creates fantastic alternative realities full of signs, symbols and deeper meanings. As he says, he feels more like a writer manifesting his thoughts and moods through visual art than a photographer. By looking at Thompson’s photography, you can feel yourself being dragged into his quiet dreamy solitude.*

*Most of the text adapted from here

I especially like his work because of the bizzarness and the beuty that lies in that weirdness. In my opinion he is extremely talented and all of his pictures look really good quality.

 Enjoy, Kamile